A few months ago, I was offered a controller position at a well-known clothing company that I will not name. Although it had it's brighter days, the company actually went bankrupt two years ago. Without going into details, the environment was just not for me. It was very old-school and slow. Despite signs of recovery, today's economy remains uncertain. I'm not going to lie, it's hard finding a job. So, I accepted the offer even though it was very far from meeting my expectations salary-wise. I figured I could do it for the experience.
One week later, I left. Yes, I did. I made them an invoice and asked them to write me a check before I go. I was so frustrated. Again, I will not go into details, but basically, they promised me to give me the salary I expected in three months, which I know they will not because I have more money in my bank account than they do. So needless to say that they will not be able to pay me later.
...but that gave me an idea. Why don't I work for myself? Why don't I go find clients, and help them with their finances and accounting?
I actually considered this while I was still employed, but I didn't really think I had enough experience. Luckily, I worked in audit and have seen different industries, met all kinds of people and have learned to be versatile...which is one of the most important qualities for someone who wants to work for their own. Someone once said to me, the winner of a triathlon is not the swimming expert, the cycling expert or the running expert...it's the one that is not an expert but knows a bit of everything.
At the beginning of my venture, my plan was to look for a normal full-time job while I try to find clients on the side. A few weeks later, a firm where I used to work at saw my website and contacted me. They needed someone to help them out with a mandate. Without hesitation, I accepted of course. I worked there a few days a week while I kept on looking. From there, the ball just started rolling...
After a few weeks, I was still working on the mandate at the accounting firm, and found a new client. That client had 2 companies and needed someone to be take over the accounting department. The person that was there before me left on bad terms and they needed someone to put the pieces back together. It was challenging, but because I was an auditor, I was able to easily find the missing pieces of information. I came up with new ideas and new tools to save time and money for the company, and it really motivated me and I loved it. Also, financially, I will never be able to make this salary if I were a regular employee. I wondered, why don't I just do this instead of looking for a real job?
I used to like structure, until I realized that structure is a false sense of security...because you can get fired at anytime anyways. Now, I do different things everyday, and it forces me out of my bubble, because I have to go out and meet people. I've had one client who made me do 20 push-ups once, no joke. I get to choose my schedule, I don't ask for permission, and I feel valued. There are also many disadvantages, like risks...which I don't really consider it as a disadvantage.
A few months of self-employment thought me some things...It's very important to maintain a good network, but not necessarily a large one. I was able to make it because there were great people that wanted to help me, and I'm so thankful for that. Those people referred clients to me because they trusted me. It's also very important to always be yourself. There are tons of other people who do the same thing, but you are not those people. You are you, and you have to be the best of yourself, and people can sense that and they will remember you. Your business is based on you and only you.
So, this is what I've been doing. Sometimes, I can work up to 7 days a week. Even when I'm not working, I'm looking for clients. I cannot go on vacation, I don't know when I will be able to find my next client, I don't know if I can do this long-term, I don't know if I will give this up for a big-name company's offer. I really don't know. There's still a debate in my head but for now, I'm just going with the flow.
It's really hard to jump into this when you have a stable job and a stable life, but I had nothing. I just feel like this was meant to be. Like I always said, I'm someone who believes in all things that are meant to be. Sometimes, life will send you signs but if you're too obsessed over something else, you will miss it and you will wonder, why you're so unhappy. Overall...I feel so lucky and blessed, and I don't know what I've done to deserve this!
I'm like an old lady these days, reading about succulents and how to propagate them. I'm so obsessed that I'm going to write about it. My mom is mad at me for calling home, when I'm traveling, just to tell her to water my plant. I had other plants before but, succulents are the only ones that I've been able to care for long-term. If you're reading this, you're probably thinking, no duh, succulents don't die. I just love my succulents!
So, I got a succulent 2 years ago. It looked like this when I first got it. Fat and cute.
Two years later, it got very long and skinny. Not so cute anymore.
Some baby succulents also grew near the bigger stem, which are adorable, but the main one looks pretty weird. I read somewhere that it grew that way because it lacked sunlight. I was going to leave it like that, but the leaves at the bottom don't look very healthy. So, I had to save my poor succulent.
I removed all the leaves at the bottom, and cut the small rosette off that long stem. I'm keeping the
middle sections of the stems for now, since I don't know if they can
grow into something. Some leaves looked wrinkly, but I'm going to give those a chance to grow as well, and not throw them away yet. Now, I'm going to let the ends dry out before I do the next step.
This is what I'm left with for now; the huge stem that I cut off, and the baby ones that were already there.
One day, I'm going to have a forest of succulent! :D
I went to La Mauricie National Park on the long weekend with friends. The park has more than 150 lakes, a good variety of wildlife and flora, fabulous views of course and many activities to choose from.
It was actually my third visit in this park. The first time, I went with my mom to do the longest trail called "Deux-Criques", but we got confused and did another trail instead. The second time, it was with my mom again and we went there for the same reason, but the park entrance was closed so we lost a lot of time to drive to the other entrance and we didn't have enough time to do the long trail. I definitely need to go back to hike that trail soon.
This time, there was a bunch of us who had nothing to do on the long weekend and didn't want to do the typical eating and shopping trip to Toronto, so we decided to spend some time in nature. We could only fit two people per car because we had so much unnecessary stuff and way too much food. The camping site itself doesn't have any views but it is very clean and with good privacy, which is perfect to be cozy with each other.
We had the chance to do a short and easy hike, go fishing but got no fish, and go on a kayak excursion to see the Waber Waterfalls without making it. We had a great time, even if we did everything halfway :)
"Sometimes, when I look at myself in the mirror, I think about him."
"What do you mean?"
"Just my face...it reminds me of him."
"Hmm...I wonder why."
"I think it's because when you like someone, you subconsciously, or even consciously, want to look like them. You want to be passionate about what they are passionate about, you want to spend time doing what they are doing, you like their favorite color, you like driving at sunset because they used to like it too, you spend time outdoors because you want to see what they see...you become them in a way...that's why it reminds you of them to look at yourself in the mirror."
"Waw, so well said! Can you write it down? I'll quote you."
"...I don't mean only people you loved, but I believe every single person who passes through your life leaves a part of themselves ingrained in you. In other words, you're the result of everybody you've met...Authenticity is sometimes very ironic."
Every year, I feel so blessed to have a bunch of good friends and family to celebrate my birthday with. There are the ones who were here to celebrate my birthday every single year in the past, the ones I got closer with this year and hopefully will be here for the years to come, and those who can't make it but I know they still care... I'm amazed at how many things has changed in 365 days and I know the best is yet to come.